Expectations

I can't recall where I read this thing on expectations. One of the local blogs. The blogger was commenting on their state of depression and distress over world events and personal life issues. Maybe, they pondered, they were expecting too much.

My gut reaction was "no, no no no nooooooo", as in "no, don't go there. Don't do that to yourself! Don't deny what you want and need!"

All too often, since I was a young girl, I have been told or it has been implied that I expect too much. I've come to the conclusion that when people say that, it's because they simply do not wish to hear ones truth. They are happy living in their own world of denial (or maybe they're just really fatigued) and do not wish to be disturbed out of their current state of mind. Those who are in denial though are easy to spot--they NEVER want to hear what you have to say.

Those who have high expectations are typically the idealists. They can see the injustices around them. They can smell the corruption, the abuse, the lies. They know to the core of who they are that how things are is not ok. And yet even if how things are is being presented as ok, they know it's bullshit.

Those who have high expectations are usually highly sensitive. They are sensitive to the pain and suffering of others. It's as though they cannot be still or feel ok for any length of time until they feel change is in the midst, until they know fairness has won out over injustice, love has won out over fear.

So to whomever's blog I read about your concern that perhaps you expect too much, I say to you to embrace your expectations. Behind them are your personal truths. The voice of your Soul. Wear them proudly. Shout them to the world. Whisper them in your prayers. And when someone implies that maybe your expectations are "too much" or "too high", don't let that silence you. Don't let that stir up doubt. Let the individual know you disagree or quietly walk away. And remember that without expectation, things usually stay the same. Change happens when someone sees something needs to be different. It is out of this need that expectation arises. I say embrace it!