anger and apathy

perhaps it's because i am sick..........

perhaps it's because of the political corruption..........

perhaps it's because of the never-ending violence and wars and human suffering and injustice.....

perhaps it's because of the blind fools who ignore the violence and political corruption........

perhaps it's because of those richie-rich types who claim to see the problems and hold all sorts of lavish gatherings and events promoting their agendas when that money would be better spent on the people and their unnecessary situations of suffering............

perhaps it's because of the mortgage industry scam, lenders taking advantage of people who aren't dressed the part, have lower credit ratings and/or simply are unaware of the legal terms in their contracts.............

perhaps it's because of my spouses utterly pious, cruel, neglectful parents..........

perhaps it's because of my families neglect..........

perhaps it's because half of our pitiful wages go to live in a house that is in desperate need of repair and is owned by a slumlord who regularly doesn't show to fix said repairs or arrives hours late and who promises each time to change but has yet to date............

perhaps it's because i feel a giant void from the universe where i once felt some sort of a connection.........

perhaps it's because i no longer feel that energy to attempt to make something of my life..........

perhaps it's because i'm f'ing sick of the enormous competition from all avenues in life...........

perhaps it's because we are unable to afford to have a child and buy a home and do all of the other things our families so easily did 30 years ago............

perhaps it's because i scream these things on a regular basis and yet nothing changes.........

perhaps it's because of this shit and so much more that today i simply feel angry and apathetic.